so i dont know whats going on with me right now... i feel as if i might be depressed but dont know y... i feel like everything i do is an act to keep everyone from seeing whats really going on but as the days go in i think people are starting to see it, they ask me if i am ok or whats wrong but i have no awser for them... i feel lost... i feel on edge. i feeel i want to do something crazy just to piss people off to show them i am not a perfect lil girl who has everything figured out. that even thoe i am kaydra fischer and i have it all and life is good, i have an amazing boyfriend who loves me a family like no other on earth a dancce family who i trust and love a church family who has my back i still feel alone in it all. i wonder somethimes what it would feel like to drive my car off the rode, i wonder if that would heal all the pain but i never would cuz i know i have so much to live for and i know how many people i would hurt if i did...
im just tired...
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